This has been an eventful week for me. With all of my excitement, entering into Beta-read phase a few days ago, I had enough jitters to bounce myself into another state. I love my book. I love my characters. They have become a part of me. Even so, handing them over to a group of people I don’t know is enough to make me question how well I conveyed my story. Silence can be deafening. Even if you’ve only been waiting for a few minutes. Five minutes, to be exact. Yeah, that’s just how nervous I really was.
From that first five minutes on, I stared at my computer and waited for a response. I knew it was insane. These things take time. Still, a small, still voice inside of me kept whispering, “What if they don’t like it? What if there are plot holes I’ve missed? What if…” I was a ball of nerves.
10… 15… 20… 25… 30 minutes later- the comments have already begun rolling in. Just a few pages in and they’re loving it! My eyes well up with tears of joy. The stale breath I’ve been holding in my sore lungs can be released. Exhale. The fear of failure is replaced with an overwhelming sigh of relief. Maybe all those long months of sleepless nights will pay off after all! I am exhilarated. Hopeful. Whatever the destination, I am in it for the ride. This is now real.
So, what’s next? Incalculable still has another week and a half in the beta stage, and then it’s off to the final cutting board for edits, and on to Amazon! I am waiting with baited breath, hoping for the same reception from ARC readers. And of course, everyone else.
This is truly an adventure!